Hi guys, it is very unfortunate that until this very day, our internet connection at home is still under repair. I could only steal enough time in the office to respond to a few comments and visit a few blogs each day. It is a very sad thing that this catastrophe had to befall on us. Nonetheless as a responsible blogger that I am (or at least trying to emulate) I will try to update my blog somehow.

But then again, this is what I can offer you for the mean time. Just think you haven't heard this yet. And enjoy this as much as I enjoyed composing, recording, and singing this song.

Quote of the Day:
A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself-and especially to feel, or not feel. Whatever you happen to be feeling at any moment is fine with them. That's what real love amounts to - letting a person be what he really is. -- Jim Morrison

I have been away from my blog for a long time, a week, more or less. And it made me feel very detached. I was active in interacting with other bloggers in the blogosphere though, and it was a very enriching experience meeting other bloggers, talking to them with ‘forum’-esque proportions in their own territorial domains, bugging and teasing each other.

You’re in my arms and all the world is calm, the music playing on for only two. So close together and when I’m with you, so close to feeling alive. A life goes by, romantic dreams will stop so I bid mine goodbye and never knew, so close, was waiting, waiting here with you. And now forever, I know, all that I wanted to hold you so close. So close to reaching that famous happy end, almost believing this was not pretend, and now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come so far we are so close. Oh how could I face the faceless days if I should lose you now? We’re so close to reaching that famous happy end, and almost believing this was not pretend. Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are, so close, so close and still so far.

As promised, I have uploaded my song so that everyone can listen to it.

Get the lyrics here.

EDIT: Media already available. Click here to listen.

I have been listening to a lot songs lately and they've got me singing. My latest creation to date: Open Up.

I have been so inspired that after writing this song today, I immediately recorded it. And for added bonus, I added an accompaniment; and with further extra, I attempted to add backup.

Unfortunately, our internet is going wonky again, and would not allow me to upload my new song. I will try to upload it again tonight and hopefully it should be available by then.

I first heard his pieces from his Multiply site. So I immediately emailed him to allow me to publish his works on my Blogger.com. He gladly agreed and sent me his music files.

What I will be offering you tonight will be two musical scores he created for a play in school. Not much detail has been given to me about the nature of the play but in one of our correspondence he mentions:

" these songs are for a play.
ok first was for the creepy theme... then my friend, Kyle's group mates said that it was too scary... the play is of a love-story that has a ghost in there somewhere.. like the ghost was in love with the girl or something...
so i made the second file i sent u... i tried to make a median between love-story-ish and scary music..."

Play List:
1. Christopher Graham - Web Theme
2. Christopher Graham - Ghost Love

I hope you enjoy!

Quote of the Day:
"Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life." -- Berthold Auerbach

Song List:
1. Last Song - A Capella
2. Let The Pain Go Away - A Capella
3. Open Up - First Draft
4. So Close - Cover

Quote of the Day:

"The belief in a thing makes it happen." -- Frank Lloyd Wright

Song List:

1. Last Song - A Capella
2. Let The Pain Go Away - A Capella

How hard could it be being in two places at one time?
How can two separate times exist as one?
How can two worlds be joined?
When we are lives apart?
Night and day is what we are.
We come and go but never do we meet.
I see a glimpse of you as so do you.
But that is all for we are not one, but two.

Is it impossible to share this moment with you?
Could I smile the smile you lips has dawned?
Could I cry the tears your eyes just shed?
If we are lives apart?
I am night and you are day.
We both live but never at once.
Though we are joined, I could never feel
The caressing touch of your radiant light.

At the passage of time,
I grow old of waiting.
But never do I tire of dreaming
The moment we could be together.
You and I are day and night.

Verse:
It may have started with fun and games.
Everyday, always the same.
I never really thought that it’d come to this.
A moment in my life with utmost bliss.

Coz every time I see you smile.
You make my whole world all worth while.
And everyday I think of you.
My love for you, baby, is oh so true.

Verse:
I feel so lonely when we’re apart.
I might have fallen from the very start.
Now I realize all I wanna do
I’ll make you smile, whenever you’re blue.

Coz every time I see you smile.
You make my whole world all worth while.
And everyday I think of you.
My love for you, baby, is oh so true.

Bridge:
I could have wandered in search for another.
But I stayed and lingered to be with you forever.

I’m right here waiting, waiting for you.
Hoping that some day, you’ll smile for me too.

Coz every time I see you smile.
You make my whole world all worth while.
And everyday I think of you.
I pray that you, baby, make me smile too.

VERSE 1:
Inspiration strikes
The moment I gaze at you
Every word I speak
Shares a part of you
It might have been love
But I can never really know
This is pain I feel
But why is this so?

CHORUS:
Let the pain go away
Throw all bitterness and rage
It's no longer in my hands
I don't have any place to stay
Let the pain fade away
Let time have its way
Only then can I realize
If the feelings should go or stay

VERSE 2:
Every glance
Makes my world move slow
But the words you said
Crushed my very soul
I know it is love
That can no longer be
I just feel the pain
Don't you feel it too?

BRIDGE:
I've had my chance
I blew it faultlessly
Every move was my mistake
And now it's time to pay
Once it was love
Turned into pain

You know what's great?
It’s being pushed aside like
dirt being swept away by
a hag from her dusty
cabin.
But just because I’m smaller
than dirt doesn’t mean they
can treat me any less
than those with gold and
silver.
I know they deserve better.
I know that now.
And a mere speckle like
me is no match to
those kings and princes surrounding
them.

You know what’s nice?
It’s being talked to like
a parasite leeching from
some other guy’s
rewards.
But they know I’m not.
I know I’m not.
They should even know better,
or they should not have
spoken to me at all.

You know what’s awesome?
It’s being nice but get
unappreciated.
Life’s unfair, I should
have known that.
I should have known better.
No wonder it has become
a cliché.
But I can’t take this
crap from life.
I never sowed crap,
why should I reap crap?

I know what’s great!
I know what’s nice!
I know what’s awesome!
How about I serve you
a meal with your words
on it?
Oh someday,
you’ll gonna have to eat
them.
Take them back
or you’ll be having
the best dish
of your life.

Every so often, just when
you think everything has settled
down, as the hectic and
fast-paced trek you have
been on has just melted
to a slow and constant
flow of ease, a
significant turn just has to
bend the complete silence and
shatter every bit of mended
you.

I’m no psychic, but
I feel that moments from
now, another is just
around somewhere. Moments
from now, another tremor
will come. The scarier
thing than knowing its arrival
is not knowing how to
prepare for it. And
even scarier is the part
when I have to deal
with the after shock.

Ever since that last maladies
I endured, I have
gained several insights. I
gained a new part of
me. A part that
is meant to be stronger.
This will be my final
test, the ultimate one,
for after this tedious ordeal,
will follow the critical judgment,
the decision to completely change
or…

and there it is.
my empty palette,
staring at me invitingly.
again.
i know you too well,
my familiar friend.
a bittersweet reunion.

you want only to comfort me
yet the sight of you tells me i'm in too deep.
again.

the need to cover all of you is overwhelming.
to ease the pain is all i want.
so here come my words,
my thoughts,
my sentiments,
my griefs,
my hopes,
my tears...

if only i could paint you with brightness.
yellow and orange...
pink and...
my mind's a blank.
all i know is
blue and grey...
black.
black.
black.
my palette always looks dismal in the end.
i'm sorry my friend.
i'm trying...

the words used to flow.
but now i'm at a loss.
it's something else i feel.
a different shade i'm looking for.
i don't know what to think,
what to do with this bombardment.
it's strange and new.

it could be...better.
brighter.
it could be...
pain.
the pit.

it is
fear.
i'm yearning to try.
but it's bigger than i'd imagined.
the chances.
the leaps.
the gains.
the trials.
the losses.
the tears...

the time will come
when no palette will be big enough,
not for the both of us.
i dread that day.
i hate that i see only that.
what my mind is too ready to believe
my heart is too eager to deny.
but to find a way
to make ends meet,
to make you happy,
to make this work,
i'm trying...

right now my night is gloomy.
why it has to be so i wonder.
the palette is always white...
to put darker shades on?
i've always thought so.
but a tiny voice begs to differ,
that one can keep it bright.
it struggles to be heard.
and i hear it every so often

...louder i hope it becomes.

there must be that other side of me.
dying to paint a different picture.
it exists somewhere.

i look forward
to making out the colors soon,
to putting them together,
to creating something new...
to knowing only gladness
when i see my familiar friend...
to sweet reunions.